daring to live fully alive
"I celebrate myself, And what I assume you shall assume, For every atom belonging to me as good as belongs to you... The atmosphere is not a perfume... it has no taste of the distillation... it is odorless, It is in my mouth forever... I am in love with it... The smoke of my own …
For while we are still in this tent, we groan, being burdened - not that we would be unclothed, but that we would be further clothed, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life." 2 Corinthians 5:4 Two weeks ago today I was in Yangon, Myanmar, 11 hours and 30 minutes on …
Comparison is a constant struggle for so many people, including myself. It is so easy to view other's lives, bodies, talents, friends, or countless other things as superior (or sometimes inferior) to your own. We feed our insecurities by constantly looking to other people to see if they're better than we are; we justify this internal depreciation …
06/04/2016 (about fingertips and falling) cigarette smoke has invaded my lungs, your callused fingers have invaded my dreams; this thick delirious haze is induced by sleep deprivation, and it's a sedative to my functioning brain but a steroid to my butterflies; I swear, the oxygen here is heavier, my lungs work twice as hard and …
I really hate year-end posts, new year's resolutions, and in general all things cliche' and mainstream about the close of one year and the launch of another. And yet, inevitably, I always find myself contemplating the events of these past 52 weeks and wondering what it all meant, missing the lovely moments, reflecting on the …
Today is the first Monday in which I haven't had places to be, responsibilities to uphold, assignments to turn in, stress to manage, and non-family members to be sociable with; in other words, today was the first Monday of Christmas break. I have been long-awaiting this break ever since fall break ended and the multitude …
The universe (and God) love to work in the most annoyingly ironic ways; today's dose of irony began with my certainty and concluded in my complete messiness. I've been so sure, ever since middle school, of where I'm going to go to college, the things I'm going to study, and what I want to do …
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I've been learning so many things about myself, and life, and emptiness as of late. maybe it has a lot to do with my present season of life, and the constant state of transition in which I am living currently, but everywhere I look I realize something else about alive-ness. the unpredictability of loving, the …
today: I woke up early after staying up late, I spent too much time making breakfast, I had two cups of coffee, and forgot to put my laundry in the dryer. (I'm packing for a trip to South Carolina, see.) ah yes, the packing. I spent too much time pulling out all the clothes I …
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"All has gone to rest. And I don't know whether I'm alive or will live, or whether I'm rushing like this through the world. For I'm no longer weeping or laughing." (Things that hurt) Two suicide bombers in the Turkish airport. (only three weeks after I was there, I am safe, they, both the bombers …
Continue reading "Reasons my heart breaks, and my humble understanding of them."
